Inspired by one of CP’s plurk posts on this pic.
He brings his hands up to rub at his tired eyes. “Do you know how many lanky brunettes are there in Dalton?? I look every time one passes. Even when I know it’s not you. I still LOOK…just to make sure. This crazy part of me is convinced that if I look hard enough, one day it will be you walking by. And I’d kick myself if I missed it-..”
The first time it happens, they’re in Julian’s room for their traditional last-weekend-of-the-month movie night, just the three of them, Derek, Julian and Logan. The bed is littered with all kinds of snacks and Derek’s complaining about how he can “barely move without lying on one of Logan’s special boy treats”. Logan is ignoring him as best he can, sticking to his allergy-friendly, nut-and-food-dye-free snacks and trying to focus on what’s happening on-screen. Julian is concentrating on keeping his breathing nice and even and ignoring the tingles shooting through his body from every single point Logan’s body is touching his. It’s difficult, because they’re three boys on one bed, so they’re squeezed together, and Julian can feel it in his very bones every time Logan breathes. He can feel the way the silky white, almost invisible hairs on Logan’s right arm brush against the darker hairs on his left. He can’t move away, because he’s sandwiched between his two friends and he has never been less comfortable with that since the Brightman twins cornered him and turned him into, in their words, “the meat-patty in a fart-sandwich”. On that occasion, he had decided that he really didn’t want to know what the Windsors were fed to make them so gassy. Now, though, gas is the last thing on his mind, because Logan is shifting again and he has to take steadying breaths again. It’s actually working, but then Derek, the idiot, suddenly sits up and the mattress bounces and Julian can’t react before his head collides with Logan’s. It doesn’t hurt or anything, but the three seconds, when Logan is breathing right into his ear, are enough to send him scrambling over Derek to get off the bed as fast as possible. He mumbles something about needing the bathroom and leaves them to stare after him.
You know, what if. Maybe something deep down inside Julian and Logan’s hearts remembered their first meeting and how Logan taught Julian what a heart was, what it symbolized in a way: love. And maybe that was when they first fell in love. Without even knowing it or remembering each other consciously, some little wisp of memory hidden within recognized and recalled one another. Because since that day as little kids they somehow knew they were meant for each other. And had literally been looking for each other forever. Souls seeking each other out… And this was part of the reason Julian couldn’t move on from Logan. And why, despite thinking Julian was straight and that he had no chance, Logan deep down pursued people like Logan that he thought he could obtain. Because their souls somehow remembered and knew?
B-B-BUT ALL THIS TIME IT WAS JULIAN SINGING “NEVER MIND, I’LL FIND SOMEONE LIKE YOUUUUUUUUUUUU..” ABOUT LOGAN BUT LITTLE DID WE KNOW, LOGAN WAS PRACTICALLY SINGING THE VERY SAME THING ABOUT HIM… AND-AND… (Hyperventilates) OH MY GOD. I CAN’T EVEN BREATHEKFGERUEGHDFIOHUI. S-S-SOMEONE H-H-HO-HOLD ME.